11月3日 耶穌的奴隸

我已經與基督同釘十字架，現在活著的，不再是我，乃是基督在我裡面活著。（加二20）

這句話的意思是我親手折斷自己的主權，完全降服於主耶穌至高的權威。沒有人可以替我做，我必須自己去行。神可以在一年有三百六十五次叫我們面臨作決定的時刻，可是他不能推我過去。我必須打破脫離神而獨立的外殼，釋放整個人格，與他合一；不再跟從自己的主意，完全效忠主耶穌。一旦如此，就無可爭辯了。很少人真正知道什麼叫效忠基督 – 就是“為我（主）的緣故。”有這個才有精忠的聖徒。

這破碎的關鍵到了沒有？其他的事都不過是敬虔的偽殼。決定性的一點是 – 我肯不肯無條件投降，順服基督？我必須打破實現自我的企圖，這樣，與主認同的超然事實就隨即出現，聖靈的見證就明明可見 – “我已經與基督同釘十字架。”

我對基督教的熱誠，就是特意把自己的主權捨棄，作耶穌基督的奴僕。若非如此，我尚未踏上成聖之路。

只要每年有一個學生被神呼召，就是以肯定這間神學院的存在價值。若只作為一間機構，這學院沒有什麼價值。它不是為學術研究，其最大的用意是讓神可以隨意得著人的生命。他可以隨意使用我們嗎？還是我們仍然讓自我實現的念頭佔據？

祈禱◆主啊，因著我肉體的軟弱，我與你的相交也顯得枯燥乏味，然而我的心卻是欣喜的，我的肉體亦將在盼望中安息。

November 3 A Bond-Slave Of Jesus

“I am crucified with Christ; nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me.” Galatians 2:20

These words mean the breaking of my independence with my own hand and surrendering to the supremacy of the Lord Jesus. No one can do this for me, I must do it myself. God may bring me up to the point three hundred and sixty-five times a year, but He cannot put me through it. It means breaking the husk of my individual independence of God, and the emancipating of my personality into oneness with Himself, not for my own ideas, but for absolute loyalty to Jesus. There is no possibility of dispute when once I am there. Very few of us know anything about loyalty to Christ – “For My sake.” It is that which makes the iron saint.

Has that break come? All the rest is pious fraud. The one point to decide is – Will I give up, will I surrender to Jesus Christ, and make no conditions whatever as to how the break comes? I must be broken from my self-realization, and immediately that point is reached, the reality of the supernatural identification takes place at once, and the witness of the Spirit of God is unmistakable – “I have been crucified with Christ.”

The passion of Christianity is that I deliberately sign away my own rights and become a bond-slave of Jesus Christ. Until I do that, I do not begin to be a saint.

One student a year who hears God's call would be sufficient for God to have called this College into existence. This College as an organization is not worth anything, it is not academic; it is for nothing else but for God to help Himself to lives. Is He going to help Himself to us, or are we taken up with our conception of what we are going to be?