3月12日 撇棄一切

彼得就對他說：看哪，我們已經撇下所有的跟從你了……（可十28）

主的回答是說為他而撇下，而不是為了門徒自己能換得什麼。當心別把商業貿易的精神摻入“撇下”裡去——“我把自己給神，因為我要脫離罪，因為我要成聖。”這些都是與神和好的結果，卻不是基督教信仰裡的精神。“撇下”根本不是為任何東西。我們已經變得太商業化了，到神面前只是為得那一點什麼，而不是為他本身。這好像是說：“主啊，我不要你，我要自己；我要自己潔淨，充滿聖靈；我要登上你的櫥窗說：『看神為我做的一切。』”若我們為神撇下，為的是要得更多的，那麼，我們的撇下便沒有聖靈，只是可憐的商業自利。我們得上天堂，罪得赦免，合神使用，這些在真正的“撇下”裡，絕不是原因。真正的撇下，乃是個人專誠的揀選耶穌基督自己。

當我們面對人際關係的屏障，耶穌的地位何在？我們多半遺棄他說：“不錯，主，我聽見你的呼召；但我母親阻著去路，還有我的妻子，我的喜好，我無法前行。”耶穌說：“這樣，你不能作我的門徒。”

撇下的考驗總是與親情有切膚之痛。越過它，神會盡所有去懷抱你撇下時所傷害的人。要當心撇下不可中途而廢。我們多半隻在異象中認識什麼叫做撇下。

祈禱◆噢，主啊，求你使我的悟性與你聖靈的教導一同發出光輝。

March 12 Abandonment

“Then Peter began to say unto Him, Lo, we have left all, and have followed Thee. . . .” Mark 10:28

Our Lord replies in effect, that abandonment is for Himself, and not for what the disciples themselves will get from it. Beware of an abandonment which has the commercial spirit in it – “I am going to give myself to God because I want to be delivered from sin, because I want to be made holy.” All that is the result of being right with God, but that spirit is not of the essential nature of Christianity. Abandonment is not for anything at all. We have got so commercialized that we only go to God for something from Him, and not for Himself. It is like saying, “No, Lord, I don't want Thee, I want myself; but I want myself clean and filled with the Holy Ghost; I want to be put in Thy show room and be able to say – ‘This is what God has done for me.’” If we only give up something to God because we want more back, there is nothing of the Holy Spirit in our abandonment; it is miserable commercial self-interest. That we gain heaven, that we are delivered from sin, that we are made useful to God – these things never enter as considerations into real abandonment, which is a personal sovereign preference for Jesus Christ Himself.

When we come up against the barriers of natural relationship, where is Jesus Christ? Most of us desert Him – “Yes, Lord, I did hear Thy call; but my mother is in the road, my wife, my self-interest, and I can go no further.” “Then,” Jesus says, “you cannot be My disciple.”

The test of abandonment is always over the neck of natural devotion. Go over it, and God's own abandonment will embrace all those you had to hurt in abandoning. Beware of stopping short of abandonment to God. Most of us know abandonment in vision only.